Sometimes I feel like I only post my feelings on here when I'm upset. I keep telling myself I am the only person holding me back, but why do I keep doing this crap. I keep going back to the quick fix probably because I'm so afraid of rejection. Every guy is usually more then willing to just hook up with you no strings attached, but there's only that special guy that will watch It Takes Two with you a million times, or bring you soup to your class because you told him you weren't feeling good. I know college is only a few months away, but it's killing me. I know a guy that fits all of these, but is he into me, or is he just a sweet guy to everyone. I keep fining myself in these situations, where the guy I fall for is either, just a really nice guy or he's gay and hasn't come out yet. I dunno, maybe I should stop the whole hook up thing it's starting to give me cravings for a deeper relationship, I would love to just lay down at fairchild and have a picnic and talk about how much I love this moment.
