Partner in Crime

My favorite part of blogging is reading other blogs and seeing how they interpret their life. I always seem to have such a blunt perspective, there is no blurring of the lines in my eyes. So what happened to the grey areas? What happened to my maybes and possibly? I've become a yes and no kind of person and I don't know if that's always best.

Over these past couple of weeks I've finally got to see my best friend again and its astonishing how much we've changed. For the most part we're still on the same page but sometimes our ideals differ so much. He's been doing somethings that I don't think are to smart or in his best favor. I don't know if it's just that we've fallen into different lifestyles or if it's just him being reckless. Also sometimes I find myself being very judgmental and I think it's because of these different paths we've gone on. We used to be so on course with each other, maybe we're just coming into ourselves and I need to accept the person he's becoming.. I just hope I don't loose the best friend I've always loved.

LICO

My sisters always set me straight. They always tell me when I'm getting out of line and when I need to check my shit. It's always in that way that pisses me off just a little bit to make me realize where they're coming from. I know it sounds ridiculous but it's just how I need it to be done. I think Chi Omega has really helped me in devolping the best me and preparing me to deal with all types of people. "Loyal we will be to our symphony and colors"

Poésie: 1

this is what we do

we do it till we die

we do it till we scream "us"

not "I"

we feel from our head

to our feet

in our thighs

you can see the fires burning

and the wheels always turning.. in our eyes

breaking the mold

taking hold of who we are

always surpassing never masking

OVER the bar

I push till bruise

we're on the move never to stop

we are the future

always to the future

we are the top

Reluctantly Crouched at the Startling Line..

I hate growing older and growing out of bad habits. One of my worst habits is my romantic relationships. Im a pretty intimidating person to begin with, and that's probably never going to change. I have also just sucked at regular relationships too, so since I've been in college nothing in those areas have really changed. I suck at giving signals, I suck at knowing what to say, I'm unbelievably awkward and have no cool points. I'm trying to take college boys with a grain of salt but they haven't really excited me at all. I think this has just been building up from taking friends to Chi Omega events. I just hope that one day I'll take someone I'm actually interested in...maybe.

I'm convinced

My mother is a fucking idiot, everyday I find more and more proof. She's a pack rat with food, clothes, everything. This is the second time I made cupcakes and they came out tasting weird and I asked her when the flour was from she said she didn't know THE FUCKING FLOUR IS TWO YEARS OLD IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF THIS. This is more of a rant then anything I feel like she's just senile and stupid. This instance proves that a college degree means nothing.

I'm Slowly Watching My Mother Die

and I can't do anything about it, why won't she listen to me?

Bits and Pieces

I was talking to my friend Devin the other day and I said something that I thought was rather witty... though I can't remember it now.... but it did make me think. How many other people in the world have said this exact same thing AND thought that they were witty too?!? I always feel like I'm so original sometimes but then I see someone else with the same idea as me and I think how original is original? Could there possibly be someone out there that is exactly like me?

I finally came to the conclusion today that we are all bits and pieces of each other and some bits are smaller then others making them more significant then the other pieces and some of us have a couple of identical pieces. So I guess there really could be someone out there who thinks just like me, but only with some bits and pieces.